i am tired, stress.

i only got this 2 feelings right now. working at zara is not easy. this is the first job that i feel this way. i really cannot absorb everything that i've learnt so far. i just feel that pile of things to know, pile of things to memorise, pile of things to understand, pile of things to be careful. i almost cried out during work today because i couldnt handle my job and duties very well. if i could do one thing right away, the next minute they will teach me another thing. the time is never be enough for me to absorb and i do not get alot of chances to practice. i feel so awful being in this type of situation. it sucks. i couldnt even shout out help when i am in doubt because everyone is too busy to be bother with me. i feel so lost when the customer wanted my help but i couldnt do anything. i can only just stand aside doing nothing at all but waiting for colleague to help me.


i got no time to waste. HR people want them to train me well as irene(HR manager) got high expectations from the star staffs. the stress level again goes to the trainer. 2 weeks is sucha short time to master everything. maybe to some people they can, but for people like me needs a longer time to master it. i wonder how long can i survive in that kind of working environment.): some colleagues is good while the others was like............ dont even want to care about your existence. thats reality working in this type of industry.

however, i hope i can try my best to learn. no matter what, i must endure because i got no choices. i got no certs, nothing at all. i cant blame anyone for this. hopefully everything turns well for my 4 more shifts at zara liat towers. (: may god bless me. (:

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